Don't be Anxious...Just be Prepared!

So today, things definitely came full circle. For the past few weeks I've been ceaselessly cramming for this exam. I've been in the library, been in every study room in my building, had my books by the rooftop pool, and even had my laptop in the bathroom (don't judge me, I just didn't want to lose my train of thought)....I'se been STUDYING!

Tonight, after putting my stats book down after 150 pages of review, I heard, loud and clear: DON'T BE ANXIOUS, JUST BE PREPARED! It hit me just now, for the first time this whole summer, that I've actually been in action to prepare myself to successfully conquer these exams. When I posted on facebook about the looming test date, most of the encouraging feedback I got was to simply claim the victory. I can honestly say to myself, that I feel proud about how I've really been committed to working hard; I've sacrificed some things (including getting to see my boo this weekend :(, taking a real vacation, and attending lots of DC's festivities) but I know that my every sacrifice has been a true investment in my growth and ability to be a contribution.

After the intense anxiety and overwhelm of these last few weeks, I can honestly say that I feel a much needed calm, ushered in by the fact that I've been able to acknowledge that I've had my feet planted in a solid stance of preparation this whole time.

God is truly fantastic. Just this morning I read and forwarded this devotional to my classmate:

Are you anxious or fearful about anything? The psalmist found strength and support and joy in God’s love. When we lay down our fears and anxieties before the Lord, His perfect love drives the fear away and breathes joy into our souls

As I put down my stats book, just moments ago, I truly felt the breath of God's joy speak utter calm and confidence into my soul. I will not be afraid, I will be comforted by the fact that God's been preparing for all my needs before they even manifested in Earthly form.

God - I give thanks!
Ashe