Hello. Is ANYONE home?

When you get to the dissertation stage you know that you've embarked on an uphill battle. Of this stage, I have often said "It is NO ONE else's urgency that I graduate". This statement makes it clear to me that I have to drive this process…well, as much as I can.

These past two weeks have been a little frustrating. It's like you get to step on the gas for a little bit and then out of nowhere there's a stall.

The gist of it is I feel like I've been sending emails into a vortex. Since my last meetings with committee members, I've made revisions and sent them out…and I've been tapping my fingers ever since. It seems like EVERYONE checked out or is allergic to the reply button.

Whatever the reason(s), it's been making me feel very unsettled. While I know that I am NOT the only priority in the lives of my committee members I do wish this process was much more transparent and smooth. I know, every journey is destined to have its hills and valleys, I was just hoping for way more hills.

In the midst of my tantrum this past week, I returned to doing my affirmations. As part of that process I realize that I need to work on transforming things that I have control over…which includes how I think and react to the happenings in this process.

I can stand to transform my language about NOT being a priority to anyone to focusing on affirming my May 2015 graduation. I don't have to be swept up in the ebbs and flow of what everyone else does or doesn't do because I know, ultimately, my destiny is ordained by a force bigger and more powerful than any of us.

This doesn't mean that I will play a passive role. I claim today that I am an important and active agent in this process. I release the idea of being a nag and embrace the fact that I will actively use my voice powerfully to make requests from my committee members or others who are important to helping me move this process along.

I also claim that NONE of this is personal. I do not have to make this feel like it's a battle between me and anyone else, or that actions/inactions are intended on stopping my progress. I release this kind of thinking in order to free myself up from being caught in ego and anger.

I boldly ask the Universe to align the elements so that I can have everything that I need to achieve my goal of graduating in May 2015.

That's all I got.

Stay tuned.