It is finally almost here. In just about twelve hours I will stand before my committee and do what I have been preparing for…defend my proposal.
As you can imagine, there's definitely anxiety.
I've been going over my slides, reading my material, and just trying to make sure I know as much as possible. Unfortunately, it kinda feels like my brain can't digest anymore…and I'm not really sure what it is that I "know" at this second, but deep down in there I trust that everything will be well.
My colleagues and friends have been sending messages of support all weekend, including one that just touched my heart: "Praying for u Z, the universe is conspiring in your favor, tomorrow has been written as a success."
I needed that. Just in that moment.
Earlier, today, one of my mentors left me a voice message reminding me that I don't have to look at tomorrow as "defending" anything, but can think of it as just sharing my work. I plan on taking that into my day. I'm just showing up to share.
Anyway, I'm gonna go make sure my things are packed and prepare to rest.
Sending prayers to God and the angels to be with me tomorrow; to go before me and make the path smooth. To cover the space and the people who will be in it. So be it.
And so it is.
Talk to you tomorrow!
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