The Finish Line is Near...Get the Dumpster Ready!

So, it's just about three weeks before I actually complete my first year of school. Wow, as I typed that I realized how time really flies! I'm one paper and two exams away from my Rudy Huxtable victory dance in the end-zone. I can taste it (TWSS...Lawrence!)

Of late, one thing that has really been working out for me is having the courage to make the conscious choices I've been making to transform my relationship to my life, my goals, and my experiences. While the past few weeks have definitely been a roller coaster in terms of drastically fluctuating emotions and energy, I acknowledge that during the times when I took the reigns, I pushed my way through. Right now, as I write this, I feel quite peaceful. I spent the morning at a coffee shop working on my final paper then came home and got to work on an overdue activity from the challenge.

Yesterday's challenge was to clean up my space, so today, I restored my integrity and made good on my commitment, well, sort of. While I was "cleaning" I realized how much I hold on to "stuff". When I actually get to "cleaning up", I mainly end up transferring things from one place to another instead of letting go of unnecessary junk. While, today's "clean-up" wasn't necessarily the beginning of an improvement on this (ironically, I got too tired to finish the job thoroughly ;)), it was helpful to pause and put that revelation into perspective. While shifting things in your life is good sometimes, sooner or later you really realize that shifting isn't always good enough. I accept that I need to release some things, including old habits, to make room for the happiness and abundance that I am currently prepared for.

As I looked around at the space that I was "re-arranging", I acknowledged how much my space is void of my creativity and personal touch. Currently, my story about finances has been running the show; poverty consciousness has successfully served as my excuse for not making my apartment feel as welcoming and inspiring as I would like. Underneath that excuse, however, is the mantra that runs in the background of my life about me not being as creative as others, not having the innate vision for knowing how to make things look good, and ultimately, the misconception of not being good enough. What I'm grateful for in this very moment, however, is that, right now, I'm actively identifying the "real" junk that I've been transferring from place to place, so I can get in action around throwing it out...FOR GOOD!

Divinely, today's note from the "I AM" jar is "I am grateful for my resourcefulness"; I commit to using this gift to garner the me-power to take out the trash and make room for the treasures.