Ohhhhhhh…Got it!

So it just hit me. I've been feeling anxious and unsettled about my research. After the first five interviews I conducted I was starting to second guess this whole operation. My thoughts were everywhere: maybe I didn't really think through my research and interview questions well; maybe I didn't prepare enough for these interviews; maybe I need to go back to the drawing board…

Well, I kinda did need to start over. Sort of.

Tonight, I sat myself down and began re-reading my dissertation proposal. As I was reading, all of these things were standing out to me about the data I just collected. I realized it did make sense why I was asking what I was asking during the interviews. I was gathering important information from those interviews that will help me answer my research questions. Duh!

I just needed to reboot!

I hadn't realized that in all the waiting and running around trying to get all the formalities taken care of, I had gotten so far away from my work that I pretty much forgot what I was doing. I mean, I've been reading articles and doing things to help prep me for data collection and analysis, but I had gotten so far away from my document that I had literally forgotten what I was working towards. I was completely disconnected.

It's funny, I'd been so intimately entangled with writing that damn proposal that after a while I was taking her for granted. I kinda forgot some of her important details; what she was made of.

Well tonight, we're getting re-acquainted. I'm re-reading and centering myself in those 95 pages, so I can move forward.

This is making me feel SO MUCH BETTER!!!!! Whew! I really thought I was heading for a disaster.

But, now, I got it.

I'm back.

Thank God!!!